Looking back through this blog looking for things to revise that I might be able to use… realizing how awful everything is in comparison to what I’ve been writing. I suppose it’s mostly because I’m actually trying now, I’ve started to dig deep instead of just writing out the things that flow off the surface. I wish there was anything I could post, but at this point whats mostly holding me back is that I feel like it’d be an invasion of the privacy of some of the people who I’ve written about. I’m also afraid of people who know me reading things and coming to the wrong conclusions, stuff like that. It sucks because some of it is actually really good.
Getting back on my meditate->gym->smoke routine
As much as I like using this blog, having total anonymity is very freeing and it’s nice to be able to post things I write without any stress. Still I wish I could post here more of what I’ve been writing because I think It’s much better that what I’ve written in the past. At the same time, it would probably go unnoticed because tumblr is so the kind of place where people only take interest in little short overstated bite-sized bits of poetry that you can read just once and completely understand every bit of it. I don’t think many people on here really pay attention. But then again how could you when you post something and almost immediately it’s lost in the “tagged/poetry” page. Oh well, I guess it doesn’t really matter.
Maybe I’ll just go on another spree of blocking anyone who knows me personally so I can feel more comfortable posting on this blog..